Here I am, at the start again.

I feel suffocated when I’m in school. It’s almost as if I have no control over what I can do, and everything I do is being supervised. I don’t need someone to ask me if I’m heading to the library everyday, if I’m refilling my water or I don’t know. Sometimes I just wished that people know my background a little better.

I just need to study more because my family is what you call a low-income family and my father had passed long long ago. I refill water because I dislike sweet drinks. Sometimes I just need a break, from all the questionings and what’s not.

I don’t need sympathy or empathy, I just need to be treated like someone. I hope conscience eat your heart when you make all the insensitive comments and when you think about what you said.

Maybe not, you have no conscience.

Ego and hopeful moments

I have a bright future.

I know, and I know everything would go fine (:

I confess that I would get through level 2 interview and be shortlisted for level 3 interview, and then be a PCF scholar. I understand that I would look like a fool if I can’t even get through level 2 interview.
I don’t care, I choose to believe that I’ll get called up soon. I believe, I believe.

I needa go out shooting and shopping soon! Guess wallets are on sales and GSS is here! (:

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Cause you’re the apple to my pie

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She’s so pretty, even without her signature curls and waves (: For a moment I thought it was a model in a fashion show (:

Now I can finally understand Nicholas’ love for Taylor Swift (: She’s seriously beyond just pretty (:

HAHAHAHA!

This is a joke, I dreamt that Sharmaine was the princess of South Korea and she had to fight some North Korea people, but she got pregnant and someone made me fight them.. And I ran away in bicycles with training wheels, and met many of my friends along the way. This is such a funny dream hahaha! (:

Airlington Row!!!

 

And yes! This is the legendary Airlington Row. The whole place is so pretty! And now I really really want to be rich, and go there one day. It’s looks totally like the place where Cinderella would be cleaning the house, where Snow White would be living with the seven dwarves, where Sleeping Beauty and Rapunzel would be sleeping and hidden respectively in the forest nearby. (That is if there is even a forest near there…)

BUT STILL! It’s so pretty!
I wouldn’t even mind being Cinderella if I could live there…
After so much convincing, anyone wants to bring me there? (:

The squeeze

you get in your chest, that that makes you feel a little like tearing.

I’m currently feeling like this, when people ask me to go out, and spend lots of money.
Not that I’m a cheapskate. (I admit I am a little.)

Was talking to my mum about topping up my ez-link card, told her that I need to claim some money, and said I top up a little lesser because I don’t have much, considering I’m eating food from outside, and no longer the $1.50 noodles I get in school, or the food coupon I get every month.
She asked almost immediately if it’s because my allowance each day is not enough.

I feel so blessed. I think she almost wanted to increase my allowance. I am feeling super loved, but I have to earn my own money and spend my own money soon; not that I don’t want to live off her, but I feel bad wasting her money which she scrimped and saved for us. I don’t see her buying clothes unless in the Pasar Malam in Malaysia, or if my grandmother buys some for her. And yet, she had given me so much to spend on clothes, my grad dress and so much more. It’s really time I stop complaining of wardrobe malfunction…

I’ll still be a cheapskate and save on things that I can spend on, eat food a little cheaper, spend less money on $10 movies and more on $6 movies, bring my own water instead of buying outside, eating home, and not buy on impulse (I’m mastering it)… (:

P.S: I’m not that broke, I just want to save, for my future or something (:

On the same day last year…

You broke a promise. And this year you just did it again.

Pampered

Is me. I feel so pampered omgosh!

Ever since my mum won money from lottery, she gave me money to shop, brought me out to shop, and is going to give me more money to shop! (: Life can never be better, okay maybe not, perhaps with Wesley Goh beside me would be good (:

I can imagine all the new things rolling in… Life before work is like this, and I wonder how crazy I’ll spend after I get my pay cheque, after I work. I’M SO EXCITED FOR SO MANY THINGS!!!!